My Review: If you like ER or one of those types of medical shows, this was a fun book and i think I may let my sister who is an ER nurse borrow it as i think she would enjoy it! A nurse who has been traumatized by losing her brother in the ER where she worked is having trouble returning to work afterwards in her full potential. She instead is trying to help people who have also been through hard things with pamplets, information etc. The doctor in charge wants nothing to do with her pamplets and wants her simply to dig in and work, like an ER nurse. in spite of her best efforts to go elsewhere, she ends up back in the ER with a job to do.
It was a fun enjoyable, light read. I read it during Track and field day and really enjoyed reading it.-Martha It is time for a FIRST Wild Card Tour book review! If you wish to join the FIRST blog alliance, just click the button. We are a group of reviewers who tour Christian books. A Wild Card post includes a brief bio of the author and a full chapter from each book toured. The reason it is called a FIRST Wild Card Tour is that you never know if the book will be fiction, non~fiction, for young, or for old…or for somewhere in between! Enjoy your free peek into the book!
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and the book:
Tyndale House Publishers (May 6, 2009)
CANDACE CALVERT is a writer and ER nurse who believes that love, laughter, and faith are the very best medicines of all. After an equestrian accident broke her neck, she shared the inspirational account of her accident and recovery in Chicken Soup for the Nurses Soul, and her writing career was launched. Born in Northern California and the mother of two, Candace lives in the hill country of Texas.
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List Price: $12.99
Paperback: 304 pages
Publisher: Tyndale House Publishers (May 6, 2009)
AND NOW…THE FIRST CHAPTER:
Dr. Logan Caldwell pressed the heel of his hand against Amy Hesters chest, taking over heart compressions in a last attempt to save the childs life. Her small sternum hollowed and recoiled under his palm at a rate of one hundred times per minute, the best he could do to mimic her natural heartbeat. A respiratory therapist forced air into her lungs.
Dont die. Logan glanced up at the ER resuscitation clock, ticking on without mercy. Twenty-seven minutes since theyd begun the code. No heartbeat. Not once. Time to quit but . . .
He turned to his charge nurse, Erin Quinn, very aware of the insistent wail of sirens in the distance. Last dose of epi?
Three minutes ago.
Give another. Logan halted compressions, his motionless hand easily spanning the width of the two-year-olds chest. He watched until satisfied with the proficiency of the therapists ventilations, then turned back to the cardiac monitor and frowned. Asystoleflatline. Flogging this young heart with atropine and repeated doses of epinephrine wasnt going to do it. A pacemaker, pointless. Shed been deprived of oxygen far too long before rescue.
Logan pushed his palm into Amys sternum again and gritted his teeth against images of a terrified little girl hiding in a toy cupboard as her day care burned in a suffocating cloud of smoke, amid the chaos of two dozen other burned and panicking children.
Epis on board, Erin reported, sweeping an errant strand of coppery hair away from her face. She pressed two fingers against the childs arm to locate the brachial pulse and raised her gaze to the doctors. Youre generating a good pulse with compressions, but . . .
But shes dead. With reluctance, Logan lifted his hand from the childs chest. He studied the monitor display and then nodded at the blonde nurse standing beside the crash cart. Run me rhythm strips in three leads, Sarah. After he drew in a slow breath of air still acrid with the residue of smoke, he glanced down at Amy Hester, her cheeks unnaturally rosy from the effects of carbon monoxide, glossy brown curls splayed against the starched hospital linen. Dainty purple flower earrings. Blue eyes, glazed and half-lidded. Tiny chin. And lipspink as a Valentine cupidpursed around the rigid breathing tube, as if it were a straw in a snack-time juice box. Picture-perfect . . . and gone.
He signaled for the ventilations to stop and checked the code clock again. Time of death9:47.
There was a long stretch of silence, and Logan used it to make his exit, turning his back to avoid another glance at the child on the gurney . . . and the expressions on the faces of his team. No good came from dwelling on tragedy. He knew that too well. Best to move on with what he had to do. Hed almost reached the doorway when Erin caught his arm.
Weve put Amys parents and grandmother in the quiet room the way you asked, she confirmed, her green eyes conveying empathy for him as well. I can send Sarah with you, if
No. Ill handle it myself, Logan said, cutting her off. His tone was brusquer than hed intended, but he just wanted this over with. We need Sarah here. He tensed at a childs shrill cry in the trauma room beyond, followed by the squawk of the base station radio announcing an ambulance. There are at least five more kids coming in from the propane explosion. Well need extra staff to do more than pass out boxes of Kleenex. I want nurses who know what theyre doing. Get them for me.
Why am I here?
Claire Avery winced as a childs painful cry echoed up the Sierra Mercy emergency department corridor and blended with the wail of sirens. Almost an hour after the Little Nugget Day Care explosion, ambulances still raced in. Fire. Burns. Like my brother. No, please, I cant be part of this again.
She leaned against the cool corridor wall, her mouth dry and thoughts stuttering. Being called to the ER was a mistake. Had to be. The message to meet the director of nursing didnt make sense. Claire hadnt done critical care nursing since Kevins death. Couldnt. She wiped a clammy palm on her freshly pressed lab coat and stepped away from the wall to peer down the corridor into the ER. Then jumped, heart pounding, at the thud of heavy footfalls directly behind her.
She whirled to catch a glimpse of a man barreling toward her with his gaze on the ambulance entrance some dozen yards away. He looked a few years older than she was, maybe thirty-five, tall and wide shouldered, with curly dark hair and faded blue scrubs. He leveled a forbidding scowl at Claire like a weapon and slowed to a jog before stopping a few paces from her.
What are you doing? he asked, grabbing his stethoscope before it could slide from his neck.
Im . . . waiting, Claire explained, awkwardly defensive. I was paged to the ER.
Good. Then dont just stand there holding up the wall. Lets go. The charge nurse will show you where to start.
But I, she choked, her confusion complete.
But what? He glanced toward sounds at the ambulance bay and then back at her.
Claire cleared her throat. I dont know why Im here.
He shook his head, his low groan sounding far too much like a smothered curse. If that questions existential, I dont have time for it. But if youre here to work, follow me. Erin Quinn will tell you everything you need to know. He pointed toward a crew of paramedics racing through the ambulance doors with a stretcher. A toddler, his tiny, terrified face raw and blistered behind an oxygen mask, sat bolt upright partially covered by a layer of sterile sheets. See that boy? Thats why Im here. So either help me or get out of the way. He turned and began jogging.
Speechless, Claire stared at the mans retreating back and the nightmarish scene beyond: burned child, hustling medics, a flurry of scrubs, and a hysterically screaming parent. Help or get out of the way? What was she supposed to do with that ultimatum? And what gave this rude man the right to issue it?
Then, with a rush of relief, Claire spotted the Jamaican nursing director striding toward her. This awful mistake was about to be cleared up.
Im sorry for the delay, Merlene Hibbert said, her molasses-rich voice breathless. As you can imagine, there have been many things to attend to. She slid her tortoiseshell glasses low on her nose, squinting down the corridor. I see you already met our Dr. Caldwell.
Claires eyes widened. Logan Caldwell? Sierra Mercy Hospitals ER director?
Merlene sighed. Id planned to introduce you myself. I hope he wasnt . . . difficult.
No, not exactly, she hedged, refusing to imagine a reason shed need an introduction. But I think theres been a mistake. He thought Id been sent down here to work in the ER. Tell me hes mistaken.
Of course. A natural mistake. Hes expecting two more agency nurses.
Claires knees nearly buckled with relief. Thank goodness. They need help. I can see that from here. She glanced at the ER, where patients on gurneys overflowed into the hallway. A nurses aide held a sobbing woman in her arms, her face etched with fatigue. Styrofoam coffee cups, discarded cardboard splints, and scraps of cut-away clothing littered the floor. All the while, the distant cries of that poor child continued relentlessly.
Yes, they do, Merlene agreed. And thats exactly why I called you.
But Ive been at Sierra Mercy only a few months, and my hours are promised to the education departmentto train the students, write policies, and demonstrate new equipment. Claire floundered ahead as if grasping for a life preserver. Ive interviewed to replace Renee Baxter as clinical educator. And I havent done any critical care nursing in two years, so working in the ER would be out of the
Thats not why youre here, Merlene said. Her dark eyes pinned Claire like a butterfly specimen on corkboard. I need you to assess my staff to see how theyre coping emotionally. I dont have to tell you this has been one miserable morning. She studied Claires face and then raised her brows. You listed that in your résumé. That youve been recently trained in Critical Incident Stress Management?
CISM? Oh no. Shed forgotten. Why on earth had she included that? Yes, Im certified, but . . . How could she explain? Merlene had no clue that Claires entire futuremaybe even her sanitydepended on never setting foot in an ER again. It was the only answer to the single prayer shed clung to since her firefighter brothers death in a Sacramento trauma room two years ago. Being helpless to save him left her with crippling doubts, sleep-stealing nightmares, and . . . Shed mapped her future out meticulously. The move to Placerville, a new hospital, a new career path, no going back. Everything depended on her plan.
Claire brushed away a long strand of her dark hair and forced herself to stand tall, squaring her shoulders. I understand what youre asking. But you should know that I havent done any disaster counseling beyond classroom practice. Im familiar with the principles, but . . . What could she possibly offer these people? Wouldnt the chaplain be a better choice?
Hes going to be delayed for several hours. Erin Quinns my strongest charge nurse, so if she tells me her ER team is at risk, I believe it. They received six children from that explosion at the day care. Four are in serious condition, and a two-year-old died. Merlene touched the amber and silver cross resting at the neckline of her uniform. She continued, frowning. Dr. Caldwells working them ragged. An agency nurse threatened to walk out. Securitys got their hands full with the media. . . . Youre all I can offer them right now.
Claires heart pounded in her throat. With every fiber of her being, she wanted to sprint into the northern California sunshine; fill her lungs with mountain air; cleanse away the suffocating scents of fear, pain, and death; keep on running and not look back. It would be so easy. Except that these were fellow nurses in that ER; shed walked in their shoes. More than most people, Claire understood the awful toll this work could take. The staff needed help. How could she refuse? She took a breath and let it out slowly. Okay. Ill do it.
Good. Relief flooded into Merlenes eyes. She handed Claire a dog-eared sheaf of papers. Heres our hospital policy for staff support interventions. Probably nothing new there. She gestured toward her office a few yards away. Why dont you sit down and review it for a few minutes before you go in? You can report to me later after I make my rounds.
Before Claire could respond, the ambulance bay doors slammed open at the far end of the corridor. There was an answering thunder of footsteps, rubber-soled shoes squeaking across the faded vinyl flooring.
Logan Caldwell reappeared, shoving past a clutch of reporters to direct incoming paramedics. He raked his fingers through his hair and bellowed orders. Faster! Get that stretcher moving. Give me something to work with, guys. And youyeah, you, buddyget the camera out of my face! Who let you in here? The ER director whirled, stethoscope swinging across his broad chest, to shout at a tall nurse whod appeared at the entrance to the ER. Where are those extra nurses, Erin? Call the evening crew in early; a double shift wont kill anyone. Were working a disaster case here. Get me some decent staff!
Claire gritted her teeth. Though she still hadnt officially met him, there was no doubt in her mind that Logan Caldwell deserved his notorious reputation. Dr. McSnarly. The nickname fit like a surgical glove. Thank heaven she didnt have to actually work with himthe man looked like he ate chaos for breakfast.
Claire turned to Merlene. Ill do the best I can, she said, then drew a self-protective line. But only for today. Just until the chaplain comes.
Of course. Very short-term. Merlene began walking away, then stopped to glance over her shoulder. Oh, a word of caution: Dr. Caldwell hates the idea of counseling. Id watch my back if I were you.
Claire hesitated outside the doors to the emergency department. Shed reviewed the summary of steps for an initial critical stress intervention and was as ready as shed ever be. Considering shed never done any peer counseling before. Im a fraud. Why am I here?
She shut her eyes for a moment, hearing the din of the department beyond. It had been stupid to put the CISM training on her résumé. Shed taken the course last fall and participated reluctantly in the mock crisis situations, mostly because it would look impressive on her application for the clinical educator position. But afterward Claire knew that she could never volunteer as a peer counselor. Never. It felt too personal, too painful.
Healing the healers, they called it, the basis for the work of volunteer teams that waded into horror zones after events like 9/11, the killer tsunami in Indonesia, and the devastating aftermath of Hurricane Katrina. And a Sacramento, California, trauma room after a warehouse fire that killed seven firefighters.
Claire fought the memories. Yes, the counseling teams made sure that caregivers took care of themselves too, assessing them for burnout and signs of post-traumatic stress. Like difficulty making decisions, sleeplessness, nightmares, and relationship failures. Claire knew the symptoms only too well. Shed struggled with most of them herself these past two years, exactly the reason shed run away from that Sacramento hospitalafter refusing its offer of stress counselingand never looked back.
But here she was at another ER door, peeking inside through a narrow panel of bulletproof glass. And now she was responsible for helping these people deal with everything she was trying so hard to forget and expected to offer the kind of counseling shed never accepted herself. Beyond ironicimpossible and completely at odds with her plan.
Claire raised her palm and pushed the door inward.
Heal my heart and move me forward. Shed prayed it every single day.
So why was her life slamming into reverse?
The essence of Sierra Mercy ER hit Claires senses like an assault. Sounds: anxious chatter, a burst from the overhead PA speakers, beeping of electronic monitors, inconsolable crying, and painful screams. Smells: nervous perspiration, stale coffee, surgical soap, bandaging adhesive, the scorched scent of sterile surgical packs . . . and of burned hair and flesh.
No, no. Claires stomach lurched as she clutched her briefcase like a shield and scanned the crowded room for the charge nurse. Find Erin Quinn. Concentrate on that.
She took a slow breath and walked farther into the room, searching among the eddy of staff in multicolored scrubstechnicians, nurses, and registration clerks. She forced herself to note the glassed-in code room, a small central nurses station and its large dry-erase assignment board, the semicircular arrangement of curtained exam cubicles with wall-mounted equipment at the head of each gurney, and the huge surgical exam lights overhead.
Claire tried to avoid the anxious faces of the family members huddled close to the tiny victims. Because she knew intimately how much they were suffering. No, much worse than that. I feel it. I still feel it.
When shed agreed to do this for Merlene, shed hoped this smaller ERmiles from the Sacramento trauma center and two years laterwould be somehow different, but nothing had changed. Especially how it made Claire feel, the same way it had in those weeks after Kevins death. Unsure of herself for the first time in her nursing career, shed been antsy, queasy, and clammy with doubt. Dreading the wail of approaching sirens and jumping at each squawk of the emergency radio. No matter how hard she tried, she couldnt shake the irrational certainty that the very next ambulance stretcher would be carrying someone she loved, someone shed be unable to save, and . . .
A cry in the distance made Claire turn. Her breath caught as the young charge nurse opened a curtain shielding a gurney.
A child, maybe three years old, rested upright in a nest of blue sterile sheets, tufts of his wispy blond hair blackened at the tipssome missing in spotsreddened scalp glistening with blisters. One eye had swollen closed, and his nose was skewed a little to one side by the clear plastic tape securing a bandage to his cheek. The other blue eye blinked slowly as if mesmerized by the drip chamber of the IV setup taped to his arm. An oxygen cannula stretched across his puffy, tear-streaked face.
Beside him, a stainless steel basin, bottles of sterile saline, and stacks of gauze squares sat assembled on a draped table. Burn care: control pain, cool the burn to stop it from going deeper, monitor for dehydration, and prevent tetanus and infection. All the bases covered. Unless the burns are horrific and complicated, like Kevins. Unless there is profound shock, heart failure, and . . . No, dont think of it.
Claire exhaled, watching as Erin Quinn pressed the button on a blood pressure monitor and efficiently readjusted the finger probe measuring the childs lung status. She made a note on a chart and moved back to the bedside as the child stirred and cried out.
Moms getting a bandage on her leg, Jamie, remember? she explained gently, then caught sight of Claire and acknowledged her with a wave. She called to another nurse across the room. Sarah, can you finish the ointment on Jamies scalp? watch him for few minutes? After giving a brief report to the petite blonde nurse, she crossed to where Claire stood.
Good, you found me, Erin said, noting Claires name badge and offering a firm handshake. Strands of coppery hair had escaped from her ponytail, and her blue scrubs were splotched with snowy white burn ointment. She nodded as Claire glanced once more at the injured boy. Second-degree burns. No explosion trauma, otherwise hed be on a chopper ride to Sacramento. But Jamies got asthma, and the smoke stirred things up. So . . .
He needs close observation, Claire finished. I understand.
Erin smiled. Hey, I really appreciate your coming here. Weve had a horrible shift, and my staff are workhorses, but the Hester child was a real heartbreaker. We worked a long time to save her, but it didnt happen. And only last weekend we had the first drowning of the season. Junior high boy fishing on the river. Overall my crew seems to be coping fairly well, but today might be that last straw, you know? So I have a couple of issues Id like to discuss with you. I can spare about ten minutes to fill you in. Will that be enough to get you started?
Yes . . . okay. Claire tried to recall the details of her review. How much could she offer here? One person couldnt do more than a brief assessment and let the staff know more assistance was available. At least shed found the self-help pamphlets. But first I should tell you that I left a message for the hospital social worker because if an actual debriefing is needed, then a mental health professional is required. Thats policy. She swallowed, hoping she sounded more confident than she felt. The debriefing should be done tomorrow or the next day.
What? Erin shot her a look that clearly implied Claire was the one who needed mental help. Tomorrow? I called you here because we need help now. Didnt Merlene tell you that? She pressed her fist to her lips. Look, Ive had a lab tech faint, the medias harassing family members in the waiting room, and an agency nurse threatened to walk out. Walk out, when Im short-staffed already! Im sorry if I seem testy, but Im responsible for the quality of nursing care here. My team needs help, and Ill do everything it takes to make that happen. Merlene told me you were a trained peer counselor. Arent you?
She hated herself. Erin Quinn was right. Claire needed to do whatever she could for these people. Somehow. She reached into her briefcase and grabbed a sheaf of glossy pamphlets. Yes, Ive been trained. And I can start an initial assessment, get things going in the process. I promise Ill do as much as I can to help, and . . . Her voice faltered as heavy footsteps came to a stop behind her. She fought an unnerving sense of déjà vu and impending doom.
Help? A mans voice, thick with sarcasm, prodded her back like the devils pitchfork.
Claire turned, several pamphlets slipping from her fingers.
It was time to officially meet the newest threat to her plan, Dr. Logan Caldwell.